Living a Creative Life

To live a creative life, you must lose your fear of being wrong. -Joseph Chilton Pearce

1976 Still Life

The first steps I took towards becoming a painter in art was taking classes by professional artists who made a living from their art. I chose against Art College or degrees, because I rarely saw any professor famous for their art. I did read about the artists who became great for their passion to paint, create and show their work simply because they had nothing else but that. Can you imagine that several of the greatest artists were rejected by schools of art?

During the years of learning to draw, mix colors and paint I copied other artworks, still life settings and practiced all the time wondering when it would simply just flow. Teachers gave instruction, but it was up to me to draw from that inner well of creative fires. Years of classes passed and fear of making mistakes took its toll. I would shrink sitting in front of blank canvases, fearful that I had no ideas or that it wouldn't turn out a masterpiece. I simply gave up art.

1998

Then a incredible time arose when living overseas. I met another artist who showed me how to break out of being a camera artist of perfection and make friends with mistakes and lessor works. We simply just worked on painting whatever came into our heads. The cloud of fear lifted and the flow now unclogged, trickled small works at first.  Just like priming a dry water pump takes some patience and and time, the flood of amazing art sprung into existence the more I worked my arts.

All fears set aside, mistakes were now blended into every painting created. I lost my fear of being wrong, lessor or a failure. I live the creative life in joy.



You can see my earlier works in this gallery which opened today:
http://barbara-beckazar.artistwebsites.com/art/all/amalgamarts+beginning+works/all

BINDING BOOKS...
My cousin once told me that anything you want to learn can be found in a book. So I did just that. I re-bound a book from a book on bookbinding. Now this devotional doesn't drop its pages, looks pretty cool, salvaged a good memory and gave joy in restoration.

I think I'll rebind again!

This is a link to the project Homemade Bookbinding

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I have filled him with the Spirit of God, 
 with skill, ability and knowledge in all 
kinds of crafts.
Exodus 31:2-3

Quietly sneaking back

I'm returning to my blogs and writing. Let 's see last post was in 2010 about stains in the carpet and how to remove them. Since that date much has changed in the life of this artist/wife/mother/manager/friend/daughter.
The short journey from then to now is best described as a long walk through a rather dark and ominous tunnel towards an unforeseeable light at times.

For 10 years I worked out of necessity in a field outside my creative realm. I cannot say the years were wasted due to the tremendous training, valuable business experiences and monetary benefits, not to mention travel to places like the Bahamas, Cozumel in Mexico, Maui and Madrid.

Those corporate life years gave me life long new friendships and skill sets no university can teach or give. Then in 2008 I decided something was missing. I didin't like who I had become: hardened, overworked and stressed beyond a capacity to maintain a healthy lifestyle.  I had put art into a small space both in my home as well the back of mind was much like the cutting off the most essential part of me. In 2010 I departed from work in the fast lane, thinking I could finally get back a creativity, productive art life. That lofty aspiration didn't work as planned. Apparently my artist self left for reasons unbeknownst to me.

So here I sit writing in blogs I feared would languish in the "blog-land graveyard." I am back and a new creation myself. Persephone has returned.

This blog lives, needs attention and readers. There is so much more to come!

References:
Image retrieved from: http://www.what-is-depression.org/physical-symptoms-of-depression/


Persephone |pərˈsefənē| Greek Mythology a goddess, the daughter of Zeus and Demeter. Roman name Proserpina .
She was carried off by Hades and made queen of the underworld. Demeter, vainly seeking her, refused to let the earth produce its fruits until her daughter was restored to her, but because Persephone had eaten some pomegranate seeds in the other world, she was obliged to spend part of every year there. Her story symbolizes the return of spring and the life and growth of grain.

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I have filled him with the Spirit of God, with skill, ability and knowledge in all kinds of crafts.
Exodus 31:2-3

Wall Photos

Sideswiped by the mess across my carpet as my foot painted more than I did on Sunday while I spent the time cleaning with SOL-U-MEL and clipping paint threads out of the carpet.

Sad to say it still looks bad. :-P

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Sounds like an interesting read!